Here Comes The Son

My first entry was sort of easy. I actually was excited and thought about it a lot. Now I think about it a lot but I get a little anxious. It’s powerful – it makes me feel accountable for my actions, and I’m not used to that. I started the process gung ho and prepared quick and healthy lunch items so that I wouldn’t snack or pop something in the microwave, and I haven’t. However, I ate McDonald’s - blah. Just fries like usual – it’s the only thing I can actually stomach from there but they are also quick, easy and addictive! I feel pathetic when others are just drinking lemonade and I can't even stay out of the drive through. I have to take change in (very) small steps.

I don’t feel so guilty about it on my behalf but it’s my son. When I decided on how I was going to choose to detox I think I copped out by not including him in that. Yes I said I hoped he would also benefit from this, and he has, but I cave to his sugar and junk desires waaaay too much. So when we were out all morning and I just wanted him to fall asleep in the car I got McDonald’s so he’d have lunch before his nap. Again it was just French fries but that might even be worse – the kid lives on fried potatoes! I'm in year two of mommyhood and it is soo trial and error but giving in has been a big error and now he's spoiled and every meal is a struggle.

So today I vow to try for the rest of this month to get him on that same detox – now it’s really a challenge!