It's Saturday night, and as many experience at the beginning of any breakup, I'm alone.
I haven't seen "him" in over a week, and we had what could be our last conversation on Wednesday. I'm trying to stay "strong" but I may have to hide my phone from myself in a minute. I keep reminding myself that the pain of staying in an unhealthy relationship is probably worse than the pain of moving on. Regardless, it all hurts.
How is it possible to be miserable with someone, and just as miserable apart?
Yet another great mystery of life. Meh.
May my next post be more positive.
Hang in there. You're not alone. ;) Break ups are the worst. I broke up w/a boyfriend I was living with around Christmas once...on the way home in a taxi from Liz, LA & Shelly's Christmas party. I thought my life was over. About a month later I met my now husband. Every end is a new beginning. I try to remember that when I'm having a tough time.
ReplyDeleteah man that does suck and it's hard to see the future when you're hurting now. the misery is temporary. when you're out again and having fun with someone who treats you like you should be treated it will all be a distant memory...a valuable experience that propels you to a better you. hang in there! better to be alone with yourself than keep feeling alone with "him".
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. I have been through several really really hard breakups. sometimes they still haunt me, even though I'm happily married. One thing that helped me through it was talking to a professional. You owe it to yourself to be happy. It helped so much it was like they helped me flip a switch in my brain. I was still sad and hurting and even missing the relationship at times, but it gave me the tools and strength to know I was worth more than that. Good luck!
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