It's funny how as soon as the LOVE month stars, I smash into one of my biggest marriage challenges so far. We are not on the exact-perfect-stars-align-same-page about having kids. I'm worried my eggs are going to shrivel up and die. He's worried we aren't going to have enough just us vacations to Europe. Ok so I over simplified there but it's helps me deal with what's happening. I know I'm not the first woman to feel this way. Breath. It's going to be ok. It always works out. This is not a 'real' problem. We don't have real problems. Haitians have problems. That puts things in perspective.
Before my husband, I have a pretty major history of dating douche bags. Each one had a glaring-brighter-than-the-sun flaw that of course I couldn't see, or wouldn't acknowledge at the time. I always thought, well I can just find a way to adapt and live with the fact that he is a flaming narcissist, or a serial cheater, or worse. So by the time I finally dumped the last one (on my own terms) I held my head high, and I knew what I wanted in a man, partner, lover, friend. And there he was. I believe that once you know what you deserve in love, in life, that is when it will happen. That is why positive thinking is so powerful. And that is something I still need to work on (from last month's theme, hmm). That along with some minor intimacy issues.
I've always been drawn to melancholy "love" music. Sometimes it's just the sounds, sometimes lyrics, sometimes both. I put together a quick playlist for everyone's hump day enjoyment. For all these particular songs I love both the sound and lyrics. Side note, I put this together on playlist.com, so not every song I wanted was available. Also, I apologize in advance for the last song but I had too. Sing it Mariah!
Love the songs, thanks for posting them!
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